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If you are looking for Happiness and Fulfillment from anywhere other than from within yourself, you are looking in the wrong place. A person can live in abject poverty and abysmal conditions, and feel generally happy and fulfilled.  A person can live in opulent luxury and in the best of conditions, but feel miserable and unfulfilled.

The truth is that we can CHOOSE to be happy, no matter how bad our circumstances, but I know first-hand how hard that can be in the face of pain, fear and depression. But there are also things which can help nurture happiness, fulfillment and containment, despite negative factors in your life.

I have continuous crippling physical pain, along with nerve degeneration, loss of body function and isolation.  I also face the knowledge that it will get worse and worse until it kills me.  Yet, I usually feel relatively happy, fulfilled, content and I very much appreciate what I do have.  Sometimes I lament and grieve the loss of my social life and my active life, my inability to go out and meet freinds, to dance, to hike and rock climb.  If I let it happen, depression, anxiety, and sometimes despair can easily take over.  I work daily to control those negative emotions. I work to live only in the present and loose myself in helping others, books, dreams, and DA. Sometimes reality can hit like a Tsunami—such is life—I am far from perfect. Then I work to brush it off and get back to living.

As my body degraded over the last few decades, I kept losing the ability to do the things I loved to do, things that helped to define who I am.  But when one door closes, another opens. The trick is in recognizing the next door to open, and to have the courage to open it, and to have the courage to keep REINVENTING YOURSELF.

I look for and appreciate many things that most of you take for granted, like finding diamonds in the muck. I look for the small thing, like the sun falling across my dace, the sounds of kids laughing, my partner smiling, a great song, something beautiful…

Suffering is good for you.  How would you recognize or appreciate warmth or coolness if you have never experienced extreme cold or heat?  Every life is a series up ups and downs.  The deeper you fall into the pit, the further you can later rise up and soar high above like a bird, if you let it happen.  A shattered heart, love lost, allows you to feel and appreciate the next love even more love, assuming you do not withdraw like a tortoise in its shell or build walls around you.  If you are in a deep pit or slump, have faith that it will indeed get better, but remember you can help things along.

In my world travels, I have seen abject poverty and terrible human suffering.  Yet the thing that truly changed my life was in seeing how happy most of these people were, despite hunger and living in terrible conditions.  They found happiness with each other and made the very most of what they had.  It almost seemed like the more you have the less happy you will be, but that is oversimplified. STUFF and busy lives filled with thousands of distractions can act as a barrier to the things that naturally bring happiness.

Many people tie up their lives in pursuit of YOUTH, BEAUTY, WEALTH, POWER, FAME, RECOGNITION, CAREER, and SEX.  Sometimes we loose contact with what is really important in life, and get sidetracked by the wrong things and by the massive amount of distracting details, data and demands on our time that we are constantly surrounded by and inundated with, especially when constantly plugged into electronics. We can end up with less and less quality time spent with friends and loved ones, especially doing enjoyable things together.  By prioritizing our lives and our time, we can improve the quality and happiness of our lives.  It is like constantly wasting small amounts of money per day, and not having any money left for the things you really want.

As my body and mind have degenerated, I have had to keep prioritizing things out of my life.  There is no room for the thousands of things that distract people from truly living.  In this process, I discovered the most important things that will bring some measure of love, happiness, fulfillment, contentment and perhaps a bit of serenity into our lives:

    :bulletgreen: First is to nurture your connections with people, particularly with the people you care about the most.
    :bulletblue: Second, is to manifest some sort of creativity into your life.
    :bulletyellow: Third, is to feel as if you are part of something, or feeling a sense of purpose or belonging.
    :bulletorange: Fourth, is to give-of-yourself to the benefit of those in need, with no expectation of return (like volunteer work).
    :bulletpink: Fifth, is to treat yourself and others with COMPASSION, UNDERSTANDING, RESPECT, HONESTY, FAIRNESS, TOLERANCE, and TRUSTWORTHINESS.
    :bulletred: Sixth, is FORGIVENESS, to LET GO OF HATE, Prolonged Anger, Vengeance, and Retribution from your life.  This includes Forgiving YOURSELF. Hate is like YOU drinking POISON, then waiting for the other person to die.  Hate consumes you from the inside out and it limits your capacity to love.
    :bulletpurple: Seventh, is to take nothing for granted, feel gratitude for that which you have in your life, and try to get the most enjoyment out of life that you can, while you are most able to do so.
    :bulletblack: Eighth, is to try to focus and live more in the present, enjoying this moment, and worry less about the unknowns of the future. We can be responsible and plan for future needs and future possible problems, but don't dwell on such things.  Satisfaction lies in the journey, not in the destination. There is no destination in life, just changing goals and dreams.
    :bulletwhite: Ninth, is to seek BALANCE in all parts of your life.  We need water to survive, but you can drown in a puddle of water. A drink or two of alcohol can add pleasure and be a social lubricant, but too much can destroy your life or kill you. This applies to every aspect of life, from sex, work, hobbies, social life, etc. Every relationship needs some codependency, but too much will destroy the relationship. Seek Balance in all aspects of your life.

Remember that your most fundamental personal power in life is your POWER OF CHOICE.  You can CHOOSE to be happier, to take the steps to make yourself happier.

For more detailed help to find Happiness, especially if your are Depressed, please see:

This was written to help ANYONE find a Happier and more Fulfilling life.   I wrote it especially for those of you who feel Depressed or Stuck in Life.
It is my hope that all of you can find a measure of happiness, contentment, and fulfillment in your lives, no matter what the circumstances of your lives are.  It is my hope that you will be able to look in the mirror and see the true beauty of who you are, and love yourself.
I know this seems like a lot to read, but isn't happiness worth the effort?  I believe that these steps can truly help you in a major way, as long as you actively choose to improve your life, and commit yourself to the process.  Some people have plenty of Dopamine and Endorphins to keep them feeling good, motivated and riding high, but even these people can find there lives feeling empty and unfulfilled, and all of us will experience depression at some point in our lives.
I have suffered a great deal in life, and fr


:bulletgreen: Notice and focus on what YOU HAVE, more than what you do not have.

:bulletblue: Notice and focus on what is POSITIVE in your life, more than on the NEGATIVES.

:bulletyellow: Notice and focus on what you Love about YOUR LIFE, more than what you hate about your life.

:bulletorange: Notice and focus on what you Love about YOURSELF, more than what you hate about yourself.

:bulletpink: Notice and focus on what you Love about PEOPLE, more than what you hate about people.


Truly, the greatest gift you can ever give to yourself, is to give to others, of yourself, for the benefit of others, and without expectation of return. I highly recommend it. It can also return our humanity to us, if it is lost, and it can pull us out of ourselves and back in the world, when we are lost in despair inside up ourselves.

It takes courage to live, courage to love, courage to think for ourselves, courage to be happy and experience joy, courage to seek beauty and truth, courage to be a person of integrity and good character, courage to create, courage to overcome adversity and our many fears, courage to open our eyes and ears, courage to reach out and help other, or being willing to accepted it when you need it…The alternative is to not do those things and be like most people.

You can CHOOSE to look for beauty in the world around you, and come to recognize it in the most of amazing places. I can find great beauty in a muddy puddle of water, or in the old wrinkled naked body of a 90 year old person.  I can look at a war ravaged landscape and see the beauty of single human spirit struggling  to love and hope in a desert wasteland of humanity.  The more difficult it is to find beauty, the harder you have to look, but it is there.

You can also CHOOSE to see the physical world around in terms of light, shadow, and billion of colors. You can choose to open your eyes and actually SEE the world around you, look at the world going by, instead of looking at your walking feet, or staring blankly ahead.  Stop and focus on things and people to truly experience life and be a part of it. Use all of your senses.

Most of all, look in your mirror and see the great beauty in the person staring back at you, and be filled with the wonder of it all.

You do not know what life holds for you tomorrow. Instead of agonizing over tomorrow, get the most out of today. The future can be feared, or it can be seen as an exciting adventure.

By Matthew Barry    :iconinspiredcreativity: inspiredcreativity

© Matthew Barry 1988, 1992, 2004, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013 All Rights Reserved.

O T H E R   H E A L I N G   D E V I A T I O N S:

This was written to help ANYONE find a Happier and more Fulfilling life.   I wrote it especially for those of you who feel Depressed or Stuck in Life.
It is my hope that all of you can find a measure of happiness, contentment, and fulfillment in your lives, no matter what the circumstances of your lives are.  It is my hope that you will be able to look in the mirror and see the true beauty of who you are, and love yourself.
I know this seems like a lot to read, but isn't happiness worth the effort?  I believe that these steps can truly help you in a major way, as long as you actively choose to improve your life, and commit yourself to the process.  Some people have plenty of Dopamine and Endorphins to keep them feeling good, motivated and riding high, but even these people can find there lives feeling empty and unfulfilled, and all of us will experience depression at some point in our lives.
I have suffered a great deal in life, and fr
Where we find ourselves on the Tree Of Life is determined by CHOICE and by LIFE itself.  We can stay where we are, or we can climb the Tree of Life through Taking Risk, Learning and Growing, thereby gaining Wisdom and finding our bit of enlightenment.  WE ARE OUR CHOICES.
The source of your Human Dignity is your Power of CHOICE. Empower yourself through Choice. Life itself determines where and when you get choice. You have no say about the earthquake that just hit, but you do have a lot of choice in how you react to it, and what you do. You walk a path through life, where you can only move forward and never backward, and you cannot see very far ahead.  Life will create forks in your road, as well as obstacles, events and challenges, but at each fork in the road, each obstacle, each event and challenge, you have CHOICES.  Sometimes, the only available choices may totally suck, but you still have choices.  Most people are lazy are
How I Live My Life
Happiness & Sadness, Love & Hate, Good & Bad, Beauty & Ugliness, Intimacy & Loneliness—ALL Of These Things Are Relative To Each Other.
How can you know happiness without knowing sadness? If you live your life on top of a large plateau, you will never know you are living high-up, until you have found the edge and look down? How do you know you are warm, if you have never experienced being hotter and colder? They are all relative to each other, as are love and hate, good and bad, beauty and ugliness.
How can we appreciate one unless we have experienced the other? The greater our experience of sadness, the more we will appreciate our happiness.
Love lost, heart torn asunder, the emptiness, grief, and loneliness felt, ALL of these will make us appreciate new found love, even more.
When feeling despair try as hard as you can to realize that this will pass and that this will later be a benefit to you.  After feeling despair, do not try to forget it.  Instead,
How I Live My Life
This is a powerful tool for Imagineering yourself to
    :bulletgreen: To be the kind of person you want to be;
    :bulletblue: Achieve a Specific Goal and Improve Skills (even Sports);
    :bulletblack: LET GO of Negative things like STRESS, Depression, Sadness, Anger, Hate & Frustration;
    :bulletwhite: Reenergize and Revitalize Yourself, Renew Hope;
    :bulletyellow: Improve Self-Confidence, Self-Worth, Self-Image;
    :bulletorange: Fantasize Romance, Love, Intimacy and even Sexual Intimacy;
    :bulletpink: HEAL Grief, Illness, Injury and to Forgive People or Yourself;
    :bulletred: Helping you Make Freinds and Ask For Dates;
    :bulletpurple: Manage PAIN a
Pain and Life Circles by inspiredcreativity Pain and Life Circles


Artist | Professional | Digital Art
United States

I am a 57 year old Gay man, way-old, and I have been married to my husband Greg for almost 23 years and counting, and now married under Washington State law. My degree is in Engineering, from a Merchant Marine Academy (not military), and I went to sea to sail as an Engineer on Supertankers, and worked up to Chief Engineer. I retired on my own investments when I was 34 years old, and went into Full-time volunteer work in a Soup Kitchen and doing in-home care helping those dying of AIDS. I had also started doing volunteer Peer-to-Peer Counseling to the Gay Community (trained at the University of Washington). I also started doing secondary and primary care of those dying of AIDS. After 8 years, I was no longer able to do physical labor in the Soup Kitchen, so I decided to focus much more on counseling. When I became disabled, I could no longer help those with AIDS, so I started doing all of my counseling using the internet.

I did metal art for about 17 years, since I was also a machinist, welder and metal fabricator, as well as certified electrician and plumber, etc. A year after retiring at age 34, I purchased my first Apple computer and Photoshop 1.0. Digital Photography barely existed in 1990. I had some experience working with film in the darkroom, which helped me learn Digital Photo Editing, and then Digital Art. When I felt more confident in my skills, I started a Digital Graphic Design Company, using Adobe Photoshop, PageMaker (later InDesign), Acrobat, and Illustrator.

It is believed that I started developing arthritis at around age 12. It was not much a life-limiter until my early 30's, and became crippling in my late 40's. The disease is progressive and will do me in, since the progressive nerve damage is now effecting my internal organs. I am now unable to do much of anything, including my art. Pain medications have had severely affected my cognitive and memory functions. The disease has progressed to the point where I am effectively homebound and rather non-functional, other than my online volunteer counseling. I am no longer able to dance or do much of anything physical, including much walking.

I was also born with Autism Spectrum Disorders, with High Function Autism and Sensory Integration Disfunction being dominant. I failed 1st grade and was going to be put in a school for the Mentally Retarded (what they called it back in 1960), when thankfully my parents borrowed money to have me tested, which was when the Sensory Integration Disfunction was found. After a lot of physical therapy and one year of private school, I was able to skip 3rd grade. I was in speech therapy up through the 6th grade.

I also faced physical abuse at home until I was about 15 years old, and bulling and isolation at school. Fear, loneliness and self-hatred defined much of my childhood. Autism itself acts to socially isolate you. I always felt like I was on the outside looking in, never fitting in anywhere or with anyone. When I was 11 years old, I was discretely following cute boys around, and at 12 years old, I fell in love with a boy and came to realize that I felt about boys the way I was supposed to feel about girls. When I was 13, I tried to come-out to my aunt, but she just brushed it off as a phase. Soon after that my Priest told us Altar Boys that when a boy is attracted to another boy, he is an Abomination in the eyes of God and doomed to burn for an eternity in the everlasting fires of Gahanna. I had wanted to be a Missionary Priest. Soon after that my Faith shattered and I tried to jump off a Freeway overpass, just to have some man grab my feet.

Despite knowing that I felt about boys the way I was supposed to feel about girls, I had no clue what sex was or even what those swear words meant, or what Faggot meant or Queer, until I was 19 years old, so you can see how isolated I was. I was actually stalked by girls through both Jr. High and High School, which made my life more miserable. However, because of that no one thought I was Gay. I was bullied and isolated because of my Autism.

When I entered the Academy, everything changed. They guys full accepted me, included me and even liked me. The Academy basically became my new family and I rapidly grew as a person and thrived. Back then in the Merchant Marine, Gay men would literally be killed if discovered, tossed over the side of the ship. I had to watch myself carefully. One time on a ship I got caught sitting down and crossing one knee over the other, then got razzed for a week for, “Sitting like a Queer.” Even mail was not private, so my partner then, Paul, became Paula, and I had to constantly change ‘him’ to ‘her’ and ‘he’ to ‘she’ when talking about home.

On my last ship, retiring from sailing, I sent out over 50 letters to my best mates at sea, coming-out to them that I was Gay. I then came home to find an empty house, empty bank accounts, and no partner. It shattered me. Then letters started coming back from my best mates at sea, and about three-quarters of them totally rejected me with outright hatred, including two death-threats, and comments like, “I hope you die a horrible lingering death from AIDS,” “Burn in hell Faggot,” “You don’t deserve to live,” “Fu**ing Queer,” etc. The end result was that I almost succeeded in killing myself. I only survived due to severe allergic reaction to a sedative I took to relax myself into death. This is when I finally got some counseling.

I needed to learn how to overcome the worse of my Autism challenges, to meet people, make friends, and socialize. I found a Gay & Lesbian Dance place where everyone seemed to be having a blast, so I started learning how to dance, eventually learning to both lead and follow Two-step, West Coast Swing, Tango, Fox-trot, Rhumba, Waltz, Samba, Mambo, Bolero, etc, as well as going crazy on a club dance floor. With my kind of Autism, dancing should have been ‘impossible’ to learn, but I just kept going 5 to 6 nights a week, taking lessons, and forcing myself to introduce myself to one stranger each night and socialize (harder than you could ever imagine). I pushed myself so hard to learn how to dance and to socialize with people that my brain literally remapped itself, forming new neural pathways around problem areas. This process is called Neuroplasticity. It brought real joy and happiness into my life, as well as a lot of love.

I loved dancing, rock climbing, hiking, whitewater rafting, landscaping and building things. But one-by-one, I could no longer do the things I loved. I hung onto dancing until I was coming home and vomiting from the pain. As I keep losing the ability to do things I love, I have to keep reinventing myself and learning new ways to fulfill my life. My hard life has given me a true appreciation for the many small or simple things everyone else takes for granted. This allows me to find happiness in each day, despite the constant pain, as well as physical and mental limitations and knowing I will not exactly have a long life. My partner Greg helps care for me, and I feel certain that he will stay with me until the end. What more can a guy ask for?

Alas, little of my work is posted. There was no internet to speak of when I did most of my digital art, and then no way to post art. Almost all of the sold and commissioned work was done under older contracts that did not allow posting a likeness of the work on the internet, which means it requires written permission to post, and that is too big of a project for me. I posted mostly things that marked important personal moments or have emotional meaning for me.

I am astounded by the breadth and depth of the creative and artistic work form the artists here on deviantART. I am amazed at how creative and imaginative young artists are. DeviantArt is like a candy store with a huge variety of candy. I am very thankful for all of the artists here who have shared their work with us. While I do get attacked by Christian Fundamentalists on DA, I have never before found a community like this where almost everyone is so cordial with each other, respectful of each other, encouraging, and willing to help each other. A big ‘Thank You’ to all of the artists here.

Live life to the fullest every day of your life. Take nothing for granted.



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cakep0p Jan 20, 2014   Digital Artist
Yes, I agree! Always focus on the positives...
inspiredcreativity Jan 20, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Hi, Thank you for your kind words. When I get the time, I hope to post a deviation about how and why we are born as Sexual Minority people, the genetics, biology, and evolutionary mechanisms.

I am not very active on DA like I used to be, due to my health getting worse and worse over the years. The arthritis and nerve degeneration that started when I was around 12-years-old has pretty much crippled me now, so I am homebound.  Luckily I have a husband of almost 24 years who will stick with me to the end and help care for me.  It is wrath pointing out that even though much of my life seems centered around pain-management, I still focus on the positive things in each day.  This way I still have a relatively good Quality of Life, despite the pain and inability to do all of the things I used to love doing.  No matter what life throws at you, it is still up to you to make the very most of each day.  Your Power Of Choice is the greatest power you have.  When I was depressed, I chose to get help and to actively seek happiness.  Each day, I choose to make the very best of the day that I can, to focus on the positives.  This is sometimes very difficult to do.  Learn to PUSH through challenges and keep looking forward.  
cakep0p Jan 18, 2014   Digital Artist
Hello, I've read some of your writings, and they touched me deeply. I respect you a lot. Best of luck on your
ever-continuing journey. :)
inspiredcreativity Dec 22, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
It has been a very hard year for me.  I lost my mother in March, then my Father in August, and now my Mother-in-law last week.  I was very close to all of them. I am home-bound and can't travel, so my husband has been gone for some 6 weeks, at first caring for his mother around-the-clock, and now dealing with her death, the funeral (tomorrow) and then dealing with her house, his family, etc.  I can't be there with him, which is hard, and I am completely isolated and alone.  My sister comes to bring food and to visit once a week, so I have some contact.  Not complaining, because I get by, but it has certainly been a rough year.  Losing so many people, so rapidly, reminds me of the days when I did Hospice care for men dying of AIDS, which adds even more sadness.  When your world is shrunk-down by isolation, losing 3 key members of your world is a big deal.

But I also believe that when door close, other doors will open, but you have to be willing to watch for them, recognize them and then step through.  Greg and I need a new door soon.  Once we get back on our feet, we will talk about how to manifest positive change.

My mother once said she would rather me be dead than a disgusting pervert, but I didn't give up on her.  Her love for me eventually overcame her homophobia and she became a supporter, a friend and confidant.  When Greg came into the picture, both of my parents told him they saw him as their son too.  Greg's mother did the same for me from the beginning, telling me that I was her son too and part of the family.

Hate seems to be the most powerful force at times, more powerful than love, but it is like a race between a hare and a tortoise, where often the tortoise wins in the long run.

All the best,  Matthew
Patrickjkiley Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

Thank you! I'm glad to see you are still haunting these Deviant halls, inspiring others.

Keep well.

Mavrosh Dec 16, 2013  Professional General Artist
Oh, donīt worry, real life always comes first and I am very sorry to read about what is going on in your family. I send  a bunch of hungs and much strength to you and your husband. I know that this must be a very hard time for both you and him.

Please take care!
inspiredcreativity Dec 15, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you very much.  I am sorry I took so long to answer you.  My husband's mother is dying and it is a difficult time.

I do not care if your English is not good, but I know it must be difficult for you to write in English. Whatever you write to me, I will gladly read.

I looked quickly at your art. I enjoy the realism and detail. I especially appreciate the quality of the facial and body language of each subject, because this tells most of the story.  If I find some more time, I will visit again and leave a comment.  

All the best, Matthew
Mavrosh Dec 10, 2013  Professional General Artist
I have read a lot on your profile here now and as english not being my native language, I cannot give much feedback. But for sure I will wtach you from now on as some of your writing really touched me.... a lot! :heart:
inspiredcreativity Oct 4, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I have freinds that have been with me through 3 husbands (35 years), and they know that when I fall in love, they won't see as much of me for some months.  When I met my current husband Greg (23+ years), his best friend Patricia came to hate me. Before Greg met me, they were best buddies and saw a lot of each other.  Then I came along and he was hardly seeing her at all.  Greg had a very busy schedule, so the time he spent with me was the time he used to spend with Patricia. I heard Patricia trash-talking about me at a party, so I confronted her about it. I suggested we start over and try to be freinds, and I would remind Greg to see her more.  We get alone very well now.

When two people meet each other and become infatuated with each other, their brains are flooded with the brain-chemical dopamine, the brain's happy juice, which also makes you obsess over that person.  Friends and family might get neglected, because all they want to do is be with each other every minute they can.  However, this brain-chemical 'High' only lasts maybe 1 to 4 months (depends on a number of things).  

Your friend ignoring you does not mean that she does not leant to be your friend anymore, she is just temporarily obsessed with her new girlfriend.    During this infatuation phase, you do not notice the faults in other, or choose not to care.  It is during this Infatuation phase when two people should work on building solid love, by deeply sharing all about each other.  This deep SHARING process is also how love is built. When the chemical-high wears off, many new couples break-up because they did not form a deeper love, or found that they were not as compatible as they thought. Couples who just ride the infatuation 'high' and just have lots of sex with each other, do not build any real love.  

Remember this for yourself in the future.  When you meet someone you are both crazy about each other use the infatuation time to get to know each other, to deeply share yourself emotionally, share your life experiences, share your hopes and dreams.  Most people go on dates wearing a mask, hiding who they really are, trying to look better or different from what they are.  But if the other person falls in love with you, it is the mask that person fell in love with, not you.  Therefore, for real love, you must take a risk, open yourself up and be honest with the other person.  If that person falls in love with you, knowing the good, the bad, the beautiful and ugly about you, and accepting you unconditionally, there is no better feeling, ever, in life.

If you were her best friend, you used to be central to her life.  Friendship-love is almost as powerful and important as Romantic-love.  When romance came into her life, she replace your friendship-love with a romantic-love.  As long as your friend is in the early stages of being romantically involved with someone, you will not get as much time with her as you used to.  How much time you get depends on how busy her life is and how much she wants to make you a priority.  This is a fact of life, and it can really hurt sometimes.

There is nothing wrong with you reminding her that you are still there and that want more time with her. My advice is to talk to her about this, explain that you understand that she wants to be with her new love as much as possible, but please don't forget I am your friend and want to see you too.  Remember that she is infatuated and not thinking normally, so she may just need to be reminded about you.  If she has a lot of free time, she could spend a lot of time with both of you, but if her schedule is very busy, do expect as much time as you used to get.

Continue being freinds and be there for her if this new love falls apart.

A quick side-story of how I met Greg:

I was going dancing 6 nights a week and taking the evening dance classes.  If you do not come with a dance partner, you had to raise your hand and get assigned someone. So I liked to look around before class and ask a cute guy to be my partner.  One night, I could not find anyone cute, but saw a guy sitting alone.  I was not attracted to him at all. I asked him if would like to be my dance partner for the lesson, and he said yes. His name was Greg (now my husband). I enjoyed his company during the dance lesson, and after the lesson I asked him if would like to see if we could be freinds, then asked for his phone number to arrange a time to get-together for dinner.  

We went to dinner together, then hiking, a fair, dancing, etc.  One Saturday, we went to a big lake to go canoeing. We had a great time.  We got back to his place in the late afternoon.  Sun is rare in Seattle, but as we stood chatting outside, the sun broke through the clouds and fell across Greg.  A thought suddenly popped into my head, "Wow, Greg is kind of cute in the is light," and then I noticed that I was very erect and hard. This was a surprise because I had never felt any sexual attraction to him before, but now I was. I knew this meant I was falling in love with him.  After going into the house, I told him what happened (I am very open and honest).  I asked him if he had any interest in dating me romantically.  It took him 3 days to say yes.

We agreed on no sex until, or if, we both decided we wanted a relationship.  We waited for 4 months before deciding to commit to each other.  Then we arranged a Ferry ride from Seattle, USA, to Victoria, Canada, and got Opera tickets to Phantom of the Opera in a fantastic Opera Hall in Victoria.  When we got the Hotel, we go all dressed up in formal clothes, went to the Opera, then went to a restaurant for dinner.  A String Quartet of men came over to our table and played a very romantic classes piece (I guess they could tell we were a couple).  Then we went back to the hotel and Made-Love for the first time.

AnneMAC Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks actually there is one. A close friend of mine recently came out to me and she now has a girlfriend but shes spends a lot of time with her and barely any with me anymore, I'm happy for them but at the same time I'm kind of jealous I don't really know what to do?
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